Today is a day of mixed feelings. Josh was offered a position at work that almost doubles his current salary. In fact, he will make more in three days than I do in two weeks. This is an absolute blessing to us, as we have been struggling for several years to make ends meet. It is an opportunity of a lifetime.
However, this position is riddled with complications. Josh will have to work every single weekend. And, I was pretty much guaranteed at least every other Sunday with him. This has really hard for me to come to grips with, since I cherish my time with him.
But, I have come to realize that Josh really does look out for our best interests. This will be allow us to conquer our ultimate goal of moving to Chicago. Heck, eventually I won't even have to work and I can drown myself in literature and pugs.
I sat on the bed this evening, with my two wonderful dogs cuddled against me, and thought long and hard about how Josh is so caring and wonderful. Even though he knows that this will be a bit of a sacrifice for me, he tries to offer up little peace offerings to comfort me and make me feel better.
Honestly, maybe this is just what I need too. Time to concentrate on my school work, and mend myself further. I know in my heart, Josh and I will find time to steal away from each other. That's not what I worry about. I just miss him, but I know he's only a heart's beat away.